IQAHFAIQAH

2010-04-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

“a memory is what is left when something happens and does not completely unhappen.”

http://www.iqahfaiqah.blogspot.com/

2010-03-26T22:06:00.001+08:00

yes, i love this boy even if he irritates me, even if he makes me mad

cause my babyy here is so sweet at the same time.

and today im so sad beause he wont be booking out today

and he will be super busyy:((( arghhh!

i love you always manje boy.

2010-03-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

marina barrage and vivo with my cupcakes.

i love you all(:

2010-03-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

khartik so menyebokk!

Anyway 2 weeks of school was a greatt, finally i get to meet my classmates!

noww 3 weeks holiday!!

yay!

2010-03-06T19:34:00.001+08:00

attachment is over and back to school on monday

i have a great time working there

i miss ward 39 staff already:(

anyway,i can see things are getting better:)

2010-02-28T20:51:00.003+08:00

i've been so lost since you've gone,

i watched the clouds drifting away

still the sun can't warm my face

i know its was destined to go wrong

you gave up the fight

you left me behind

all thats done's forgiven

2010-02-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

i will bring myself up

no matter how many times i fall,

no matter how difficult it is

i will peservere.

IMY my wanna be cat.

2010-02-21T22:27:00.004+08:00

take me away to a secret place,

to a better place, take me away to a hiding place

and so i know the sun is on my side

and take me away for a ride

I'll smile up to the sky and i know I'll be alright.

cause it hurts me most when you threw away the things

that was only meant for us.

2010-02-20T22:50:00.005+08:00

we will fight this battle and get up

no matter how many times we failed,

no matter how many times we tried,

no matter what the circumstances gonna be.

i hate today:(

2010-02-20T09:43:00.002+08:00

for the past few days, i'm feeling so haaapy as though i'm having this whole yummy sweets all to myself!

2010-02-20T09:23:00.004+08:00

''only by joy and sorrow does a person know anything about themselves and their destiny. they learn what to do and what to avoid"

2010-02-20T09:04:00.002+08:00

just the thought of being with you tommorow,

is enough to get me thru today.

2010-02-07T10:48:00.005+08:00

movie and lunch with my shy baby yest. and this manje boy cant stop laughing in the cinema.

dah macam funny story eh babyy? haha.

i love you so much la sweetheart.

so should i choose ice cream or lollipop?(:

2010-02-07T10:41:00.004+08:00

videocall with the best friend yesterday was awesome! n my dearest shaheeraa kept on telling me hw fat i am now and treaten me lose weight if i want her to come back to singapore. haha!

i miss you, i love you girl n i know you are obssess with me.

hahahahaha!

2010-02-03T17:06:00.003+08:00

CSSD SCRUBS

im not feeling good with all the shits that is happening and suddenly babyy gave me plenty of things when he was away in thailand which make me smile widely. thanks for the tops and all the little gift that was made only meant for us. i love you sayang:)

2010-01-24T22:35:00.009+08:00

we'll meet up very soon(:

i realised i dislike plenty of girls but that doesn't affect me of finding a perfect close friend.i realised many people walk in and out of my life, i realised many of them have once touch my heart, but not all stay close to me. i treasure those who were once there for me but I'll treasure those who stays till this very moment even more. i realised its not easy finding a perfect close friend, the best of friends who still cares about you every moment. i perfectly KNOW that NO one can always be there for you every moment when you need them but when you are still in tears they will be the one who listen to your every single cry and try to cheer you up. and after reflecting of how my life has been all this while, i have met a few person who gave a huge impact in my life and they should know who they are..

"no matter how far apart or how much we have drifted apart i know deep inside i will never forget u.me miss you." and to the girl who send me this message once before,i won't deny, i really miss spending my time laughing and do plenty of silly things together with you. i miss you.

2010-01-23T12:35:00.001+08:00

The reason why we dream its because we don't have to be apart for long and if we are in each others dream , we can be together all the time. please forward a week time so i'll be able to meet you when you are back.

i misss you so much already;(

2010-01-14T00:57:00.003+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder,

but it sure makes the rest of us lonely.

i miss my sweetheart who's away in thailand

even if he calls me everyday.

it's just so different, being so far away from you.

2010-01-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

it was you. the girl who used to be a closefriend of mine. i didnt expected to see you and only a few minutes later then i realised it was you. the old memories came back and how i used to have so much of problem because of your bf n your untrue words. but whatever it is if you were ever sincere about helping me in the past, i would like to thank you and i really apperciate it.

2010-01-10T22:22:00.001+08:00

Is it possible, finally, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another?

we can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close are we able to come to that person's essence? we convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?

2010-01-10T19:44:00.003+08:00

Pizza and movie with Tasha for my birthday was awsome during the holidays.

love you girl.

2010-01-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

2010-01-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

starting attachment tomorrow!

2009-12-30T23:05:00.004+08:00

i'm not sure why am i feeling this way

and this feeling is not i ever wanted,

so what should i do for now?

i miss you, i miss us.

2009-12-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

ABSENCE

'' change is inevitable. adapting to change is unavoidable.

it's how you do it that sets you together or apart"

2009-12-29T01:37:00.002+08:00

had my day out with my darling tasha few days back!

n another round soon with the girls,

followed up with tasha again

soo cant wait! anyway to everyone who wish me,

than you so much:)

finally im 18!!

Dearest shaheeraa, my darling bestfriend,

you have been there for me each time i needed you.

no matter hw far distance separate us, we never fail to contact each other

and i must say till this very day we are still very close

and when i told my dad about my intention of studying in aussie,

im so happy to hear that it could be a possible thing and i cant wait to meet you there

we were both so happy wen we talk over the phone just nw!

yes, after you get your schl posting, we will plan more:)

and ill pray that my dad will nvr change his mind:)

2009-12-23T01:10:00.007+08:00

my ite darlings is planning on an outing, n im looking forward to it. sometimes i wonder if my old friends still treasure those friendship?

2009-12-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

i would definetly love to visit greece one day. A holiday with my love, hazrinah would be great!

2009-12-12T16:23:00.003+08:00

eventhou we've been thru plenty of up and downs, nothing could just seperate us

and now we've manage this far,

HAPPY 2 YRS 3 MONTHS babyy!

2009-12-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

"No matter how ugly you think you are, that special someone that loves you believes you are the most beautiful and irresistable thing on earth and nothing can ever change that." that's what you always say to me and because of that, iloveyou boy..see you in 2 days time love.

2009-12-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

missin school and my classmates already. see you guys in

4 months time:( and to my dearest tasha, thanks for being there during my

good and bad times.you stayed thru'out,

u teared when i cried, you smile when im happy

i love u so much girl.

2009-12-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

i really miss all my darlings.

please hang out soon:)

2009-12-03T01:21:00.004+08:00

sometimes you make my day so colourful and dull,

and for today you make my day and i can't stop smiling!

IMY BOY!

2009-12-01T02:38:00.002+08:00

im know im supposed to be studying right now and i sure did quite a while ago

bt after sometime i no longer can concentrate.

i still think, still tear and it broke my heart seeing pictures of us.

all i can say is that i miss you so much indirectly.

i wonder how are you right now..

2009-11-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

We are supposed to end it with a goodbye kiss
but it ended up another way round.
so what was that supposed to mean?

2009-11-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

still loving that lover boy of mine. still wondering will i ever held in his arms once again. despite that, i managed to control my emotions when im in the presence of people and i managed to do my behavourial science test just now! hopefully i scored well:) and for this few days, it will be a total chaos time for me preparing my project management 1 and PBL presentation which will be on friday and upcoming monday. God! being the leader for project management, i must say wasn't an easy one but i'm glad that im occupied and not think about what i wouldnt want.

and for now, its time to do a little change..

2009-11-15T21:30:00.001+08:00

I still can't stop thinking, can't stop shedding tears over the lost i have. It really hurts but that is life, it's reality.Please, I want a miracle to happen. For now i want to be in a world of fantasy, and not reality. I'm going to start smiling, wishing my prayers would come true.

2009-11-14T00:15:00.004+08:00

the way im feeling right now just issit right.. everything seems to be over and it cant seems to mend any longer.. i wanna cry so hard and scream so loud so i could feel a lil better. even all those hardship ive gone thru, i managed to study and put problems aside.im done with my o's and will try my best to concentrate on clinical nursing and behavorial science despite all.i know, if i really want it, i can achieve it.and i want to thanks tasha, hazrinah and shaheeraa for being there,just to listen me cry.

2009-10-05T03:34:00.001+08:00

OUTING WITH MY FAV GIRLS

babyy has been away to india last friday and the worst thing is im fighting with him and last saturday's call from an unknown number almost give me a heart attack. there was an unknown call and i left it alone until it appear in my phone again so i picked it up and there is a lady who answer it and so it goes;

unknown:hello faiqah!

me:who are you?

unknown:nie iqah la

me:huh?

unknown:alfa nye..(+sound behind)

i was like why is a girl calling me and mentioning about babyy and its defenitely not her sister voice.

me:HUH?

unknown:nie alfa nye kawan nye girlfriend la.

i was so relieved. and she told me that babyy ask her to pass the msg to me that he reach india already. and later in the night babyy called me after he bought his prepaid card and i know he miss me already. HAHA!

still couting to 30 october till he come bck,which is long way to go:(

see la now i miss babyy even more..

ILOVEYOU.

2009-09-29T11:29:00.001+08:00

I think there is something beautiful in reveling in sadness. The proof is how beautiful sad songs can be. So I don’t think being sad is to be avoided. It’s apathy and boredom you want to avoid. i prefer keeping sadness within me and share with no one else n brighten up with a smile.

on a better note,its time to start studying till i drop flat. haha!

2009-09-28T20:00:00.004+08:00

dissapointed and sad. you're leaving very soon and you're still busy in and out of camp.

2009-09-23T01:11:00.008+08:00

the longer your friendship is, the more you will know that person better and then only you will know who your true friends are. i believe that distance was never a problem and not being able to meet up with your friends wasnt an issue cause no matter how far, you know there's always ways to that feeling of missing someone. the next best thing is the long lost friendship that returns. i feel excited in someway and for you my dearest, you're my best and you know who you are.

In another hand baby have to go back to camp from tuesday till thursday night when his having his OFF day! and we are supposed to spend quality time together bfre he leaves for india for a month next thursday! who wont get angry?

ANYWAY,SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2009-09-18T16:15:00.002+08:00

I know i met my babyy two days ago but i still miss you veryy much. i love you sayang. okay now im going off to meet my friends to buka together!!

2009-09-17T20:40:00.002+08:00

After 2 mths plus of attachment,finally i'm back in school! im so happy to meet my girls! and my class is stressed up finding a mini van to rent for hari raya outing!coool.

2009-09-14T23:46:00.008+08:00

You must try to believe

That I will be coming through

I have burnt every bridge that I've crossed

There's no bridge from here to you

So I row to your isle

All that distance reconciled

Should my arms, shoulders fail

Put my trust in wind and sail

I need you to believe

That I will be coming through

Cause I will not let you down

I will not let you down

That's for sure

There's a tear in my eye

And an ocean of swallowed pride

There's a heart here that beats like a drum

As I sing the waters by

Ties that comfort

Ties that bind

There's a temple in my mind

With an altar

Set for you

So you know my word is true

and blogger just would not let me upload my pictures.

so here's a lil note for babyy;

and now we have come this far, we've put our heart and soul to this relationship, all the sacrifices made and so we've done our part.. so i hope this will be forever.

ILOVEYOU

2009-09-02T23:38:00.006+08:00

you kiss me gently and whisper i love you.

when all is gone and nothing is left, you appear and brightened up my day.

2009-09-01T16:40:00.007+08:00

it seems to be fading away n i know lately i've been busy, but

that wasn't really the issue right? cause it happened before.

it just saddens me that
we weren't close as before. the time full of laughter and the craziest
thing that we've done and we always had so much of things to share
but i guess its the opposite now.i miss us. the 3 of us. and my dearest
no matter how far apart, i still love all of you.

2009-08-23T22:34:00.001+08:00

In sleep, he sang to me

in dreams, he came

that voice, which calls to me

and speaks my name

2009-08-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

what could make us more happier when we know distance can never separate us.

and after they took you away from me this weekend, on tuesday onwards, you're all mine(:

2009-08-22T10:28:00.000+08:00

so after a long day working hard, me, egyn and yana enjoy our 1/2 hr break by eating long john silver bought by yana's babyy. and coincidently all 3 of us are together with army boyss. cool uh?haha.

2009-08-20T22:49:00.004+08:00

beautiful.

baby fetch me from work today after 3 days in the jungle..

2009-08-20T22:15:00.003+08:00

i miss my crazy girl. when can we have this fun again? hurry come back to spore, we'll have our fun again!! thanks darling for helping me sort things out and not to forget remember to check our mails oftenly!

2009-08-17T18:56:00.004+08:00

i love attachment and im missing ward 49!

2009-08-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

Darling shaheeraa thanks for making me feel so much better. egyn and liana thank you so much for your company and not to forget my darling alyssa for taking her late nights for me. i love all of you! anddd im meeting darling alyssa soonnn!! i cant waittt!!

2009-08-12T00:42:00.006+08:00

Feelings can't be denied and she says nothing at all in tears.

2009-08-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

“Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they’re also what tear you apart.”

2009-08-09T14:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I attended one of my cousin's wedding. Since most of the seats inside were occupied, we decided to have our food outside in the open space. While I was happily enjoying my food..listening to the good music and dancing, I spotted an old man sitting at the bench nearby looking at all the happy people laughing and dancing away. He had this sad look on his face and I went over to offer him a drink and some cakes but he refused and start tearing. He then smiled and told me he was fine. I then had a small chat with him and he told me he lived nearby alone with his wife. Hes suffering from CVA(stroke) and has difficulty talking and ambulating. Out of pityness, my dad gave him some money and he started tearing.

Looking at him in that state made me teared. I wondered where his children are and I cant believe that there are such people who abandon their parents like that! Where is their humanity?! I really felt angry when I heard his children doesn't even visit him! It's okay. What goes around, comes around. I believe in karma.

2009-08-05T04:09:00.000+08:00

Eventually something you love is going to be taken away.So when love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead, keep your head up high and gaze at the stars because that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal, and remember, we gather strength from sadness and from pain. Each time we fall, we learn to pick ourselves up again and to let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy..

2009-07-26T14:18:00.006+08:00

thanks babyy for the day out. i love you very very very much. but i dunt understand why do you love making me jealous? elehh i have the ability to do that to okay but if i happen to do that i know nanti you merajok. so betta not.. haha.babyy you know you can be the most irritating person and the next minute you can be the sweetest and now im just waiting for my game to arrive.thanks for downloading all the best games for me:)

and please do me a favour babyy for not being obssese with your games. thank you so much and i love you no matter how much you irritate me to the fullest.:)

2009-07-26T13:45:00.007+08:00

to my darling alyssa, happy 18 bdae on the 22 of july!we've been the best of friends since we were primary 1..time flies so fast that it has been almost been 12 years that our friendship keeps burning. even if we were busy with our lives we never fail to find time for each other. i wanna thank you for all these years being a best friend of yours.the girl who make me laugh when situation is not right.the very sweet girl whom stay the whole night with me to complete my art preparation for my exam.the girl who bought me a cake even its months belated and when we were much younger we always bully the indian girl sitting infront of us in the bus and laugh at her and the time when we fought in our primary school days was too cool that we just tell each other how irritating we are and be okay the next minute and told everyone we were cousin's when people say we look alike and not forgotting when we were in the commitee and how we dislike this particular cadet, we will always make her time for the squad and told her to time loudly and the best of all,i love shopping with you. we will be trying out all different clothes from every store that we went.even sometimes we spent little time together we always have plenty of fun and we definetly tell every single thing that is going on in our life from school to friends to our love life. i really treasure our friendship alot.i love you girl. 12 years is neva a waste and regret!

2009-07-26T13:14:00.011+08:00

Dearest shaheeraa, i know i can be the most irritating girl, i can be a playful girl and also the most emotional girl out of the three of us but i know you still love me right? haha. anyway im sorry for not wishing you on ur bdae. im totally in the world of my own which i dunt rmbr the date.. for all the years we have been the bestest friends im sure there is always its up n down in our friendship but at the end of the day we both know we truly treasure this friendship alot. i want you to know you have always been there for me when i needed someone. you never fail to make me smile or laugh when im feeling down.. i still remebered you breakdown and cried with me when i receive my results and not forgetting that concern hug.. i was touched by that.. the time i was in so much pain when you talk to me on the phone just to hear me cry and try to make me start laughing.. i miss doing crazy things with you, i miss watching a sad movie but ended up laughing with you, i miss you hanging around at my place and i miss laughing out loud with you. thanks for being the greatest friend.anyway happy birthday darling! hope to meet you soon. i love you babe!

2009-07-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

girl, please stop pretending and show your courage.
face the obstacle in life that you have to accept..

2009-07-19T14:12:00.005+08:00

I LOVE YOU,BABY!

2009-07-19T13:49:00.004+08:00

when mandarin class bore us, this what we do.. and all four of us was attached to four different hospital..

2009-07-03T00:16:00.002+08:00

“there are so many fragile things, after all. People break so easily, and so do dreams and hearts.”

2009-06-24T21:46:00.005+08:00

this past few days ive been meeting babyy after school and when he book out from camp. my babyy here is being a sweetheart for travelling from mandai camp and all the way to kembangan to meet me even thou' he's very very very tired:) and guess what? i bought him a nintendo ds lite for his bdae! and baby really deserve it..my babyy so semangat download so many games to put in the ds alreadyy. haha. so now i know when he didnt reply to my message or answer my calls, he's with his second sweetheart, his beloved game. haiyoo. baby you dah macam small boy la sayang.. and now ill save up to get my ice cream phone!

2009-06-23T12:27:00.004+08:00

babyy im sorry for hurting you with what i've said to you. you know i didnt meant it and im truly sorry.babyy by now you should know when i get angry i dunt meant what i say.i said all those just to satisfied myself to ease the feeling of getting angry.you know you are my best and i love you so much babyy.

2009-06-23T12:12:00.005+08:00

Dearest tasha, even ive only know you for a few months, you have been a great friend to me.you never fail to ask about me when i'm feeling down. i want to thank you for giving me the hope, encouraging me and you were always dere when i need someone to talk to so badly.anyway i just want to say 'HAPPY 18 BDAE TASHA!'. hope that you succed in life

and hope you have a great day yesterday! wish you all the best for your 0 levels. hope we made it thru dis time round.. i love you babe:)

2009-06-19T01:14:00.008+08:00

ALFAIQAHLOVE.

baby's fat girlfriend

my happy babyy

baby's enjoying his second plate

andd when my baby's full his stomach so cute

a day spent with baby was always great.we actually meet at our usual place at pasir ris central.i accompanied baby to the polyclinic at pasir ris and we walk near the seashell park, so much memories be it sweet and bitter.i really do miss those sweet days.and my darling babyy ate two plates of rice and get so full after that. babyy ur stomah so cutee la sayang.macam ball..hehe. i love you sayang..

2009-06-17T21:44:00.005+08:00

last saturday icc meeting at the forum and we had fun total fun taking pics!

pics with yani when we were having a break during meeting.

2009-06-17T21:30:00.004+08:00

i may not know how much you love me,

i may not know how much you care for me and

i may not know how much i meant to you

but i know you are the one that i love, i care and

the one that meant so much to me and

to the most special one, my baby boy,

you have turned 20 this 15 june and no matter how

old you get, i know you still love and want me to manje kan you

and dont worry babyy i will even its 30 years later..

babyy even sometimes you are so irritating and so egoistic,

i still love you the way i love you 21months back..

all i want to say ' happy birthday' sayangg and wish you all the best in everything you do..

2009-06-12T22:59:00.010+08:00

we may miss the times when we were so close,
the times that was filled with laughter and happiness,
the times when we were held in each other's arm but
both of us know that even distance separates us a thousand miles
deep down we still love each other and that nothing could just seperate us. Happy 21st month syg.. i love you baby faris.

2009-06-11T00:35:00.004+08:00

i miss my boyfriend.my manje boyfriend who is busy in camp which irritates me like hell but i have to understand his position.my manje boyfriend who plays his psp when im quarreling with him and show his cute face which makes me melt.my manje boyfriend who dosent know that drumstick and paha has the same meaning.my manje boyfriend who will get sick each time we had a big fight and my soo manje boyfriend who eat soo comot like small boy which i always help him wipe his mouth with a tissue and i really really miss laying my head on his chest and hug him so tight.

2009-06-11T00:27:00.003+08:00

firstly i want to thank this girl for accompanying me last friday to buy clothes and the best thing, i've been very fussy and kept on calling her and asking her to see how i fit into the clothes in the changing room when she's busy looking for clothes. haha. and secondly thank you darling for walking all the way back to eastpoint and back to tampines again to search for my adiddas jacket which i dropped it somewhere.. i had loads of fun with you two day straight!

2009-06-04T01:08:00.010+08:00

ALFAIQAH LOVE.

I LOVE MY BABY.
UNIQUE?

and he wrote this on his bag.

the reason why i still love you so much till this very day, the reason why sometimes we get so jealous unresonably,the reason why you never fail to make me stop thinking about you and the reason why we just cant leave each other its just because of the way we love each other.

2009-06-04T00:30:00.006+08:00

Finally exams are over so, no more staying up late , no more preparing a redbull beside me and no more stressing myself up.. yayyy!! i'm missing this CUTE garfield cat which i would see everytime i walk home.so fat and fluffy and i'm LOVING it.

went for KC family day and i'm so glad to meet all my friends and teachers after some time.babes send me pics and will update it soon!

2009-05-26T00:20:00.012+08:00

babyy looks like this when he's soundly sleeping

and he looks like this when he's awake from sleep:)

school is stressing me up but i just have to endure it for 1 more week. yeah! anyway,as you can see i'm in love with persian cats and it justtt so remind me of babyy. awww. my baby is in love with cats, all different kind but he is afraid of black ones.hahahaha. i asked baby to buy me a cat, a persian one in white and told him maybe the spca have it so he said one day he will bring me dere and he asked me to choose if i wanted a white or brown cat when i told him so many times i wanted a white one.. he then asked me to read the message carefully and i finally realised that the brown cat, he is refering to himself. see la my babyy is so manje with me..

my one and only love:)

2009-05-24T21:45:00.003+08:00

i'm running far away from everything and i hope tomorrow will be a better day..

2009-05-24T17:10:00.003+08:00

when will i put a full-stop in everything?
i feel like running far away and never ever stop.

2009-05-17T16:27:00.005+08:00

If you were falling, then I would catch you.

You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.

And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.

Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.

And you take me the way I am.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.

And you take me the way I am.You take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am.

2009-05-12T00:03:00.017+08:00

HAPPY 20th MONTH BABY!

" They say you can only fall in love once but that's not true... Cause I fall in love all over again each time I'm with you. "

2009-05-10T18:41:00.003+08:00

basically i just dont have the mood this few days. feeling morose and utterly upset. i'm not sure what to do now. having someone whose feeling is not as strong as before and its definetly getting far apart.. it just tore my whole heart apart and i had to breakdown once more. i felt hatred when you said that. i dont know what more to do.. i felt no hope but i still woudn't give up or maybe one day i would. i myself is unsure.i'll just wait and see what things turn out to be. oh well, hopefully tomorrow would be a better day. i'm sure school with its busy day and friends would make me forget even its for a while. for now i'll just pray and hope for the best.

2009-05-10T18:14:00.004+08:00

Here goes the 3 good friends. who used to seek to one another when in doubt. Days was purely a happy one even thou' problems arise as at the end of the day we listen and learnt from each others experience. but as days past by things slowly change for im not sure what specific reason.. i was deeply sadden by it. both of you were the one i look forward to, the one who give me hope when im almost give up, the one who never fails to stop making me believe in something, the one who understands me well. and that was the past. YEAH,THE PAST. to think about it now, i'm not sure if both of you were sincere to make my day.. either you or your boyfriend make up stories about me and one of you choose to believe the crowd. well i dont give a damn anymore! it's all in the past and never will i want to be close to any of you. even thou after all this that happened, you still ask me to come to you if i'm having problem. friends come and go but true friends never leave. so to the both of you, if you choose to believe the crowd or even find me irritating, so be it. i can't stop you from feeling that way and if you happened to came across to my blog and read this post,i just want you to be brave enough and admit and stop being a hypocrite or a backstabber. Honestly, i dont feel the lost not having both of you but just a feeling regret to open up to both of you.

2009-05-06T23:20:00.006+08:00

anyway babyy ur bdae is nearing and im getting for you something. hmm what should i give my babyy faris? any ideas?haha. andd babyy im like MISSING YOU DAMN BADLY. when can i have you all i want with NOTHING distracting us??

i so want to get this for babyy!but im still figuring out if he likes it? and babyy's been using sony and never nokia so this time i want him to get a nokia phone which is much betta den sony. haha. but babyy will only be using it in 2 yrs time cause he isnt allow camera phone during his NS.. hmm maybe i'll wait in 2 yrs time to come n see if there is a nicer model?

i'm so gonna get this phone, blue in colour.. i know its not the latest but who cares? my 5610d express is already spoilt! and babyy's sony shake phone is nt werking too. and im stuck with and old ugly phone.haha.

2009-05-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

had my phase test just now and the teacher said i wad good but yeah of course i did have mistakes.(will brag on if i have the time) and bio science test is on wednesday and im still not sure a bout lymphatic system.. anyone want to help me? pleassee. i so need it!

2009-04-29T12:23:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just don't understand myself about how i felt, about my own emotions. i don't wish to cry so hard nor to tear but unfortunately it always happened all the times.. its been a while since i felt that way.i'm not fighting with baby nor my close friends and i wouldn't mention names. if you hadn't realise, every single time when you talk about it i would felt deeply broken hearted wishing i was in that position that you get so happy about, hoping and wishing you to get extremly excited about part of my life. its been some time that i actually went up to one of my close friends and let go off all the unwanted feelings.dats because i believe that keeping to myself is much better. i don't want the past to repeat, about how people start to slander about my life. i totally had enough of that.i've been faking about being happy when you talk about it but now i coudn't lie any longer cause it just tore my whole heart apart.why am i being so sad? should i even be or am i just being too emotional? well i'm not jealous to the slightest bit that he gets that special attention but it just make me so emotional. i just dont know how to describe it right now.. i just need my babyy who is in camp right now. how i wish i was in his arms and cry as much as i want with him wiping my tears away. hw i wish you could start doing your nonsense to make me smile and laugh for long.babyy i know you are busy and i dont blame you for that..i think i need a tight slap to make me stop crying. oh well, i just wish i could turn the time and mend every single thing that goes wrong.

2009-04-26T19:54:00.001+08:00

a day out with babyy on saturday was superb! we had soo much of fun and FINALLY we get to let go of all our feeling of missing each other.. awwww babyy i love you more and more each dayy. thanks for the treat babyy..even if we wasted $85 bucks but i still had my fun even its for a while and how careless of you to left your ciggarettes and you wasted another 10 bucks+ on buying a new pack..haiyoo. but im so proud of you that you make an effort and listen to me by cutting down on your ciggies.. for that i owe you a kiss ;) hehe. anyway sayangg just look at your sweetheart, i am getting rounder each day and i put on soo much of weight!! i know u always say that you prefer me this way,you love hugging and kissing me even more cause i'm more fleshier but i really have to cut down on my food.. see la babyy i so fat already and you still can buy me chicken pie. hahaha.yelah im getting fatter and you are getting more fitter with muscles and your arms and shoulders are getting bigger. elehh.. sukerr la baby i.. anyway babyy you must ALWAYS remember that I LOVE YOU more than anyone in this world.

lalalalala..

2009-04-26T01:12:00.008+08:00

iqah and natasha auni:)

zeela,fiqah,yaseer!!!

yana,ikin.iqah:)

the boyss

gauri,iqah,nat,zeela,kathik,fiqah

girlfriendsss

iqah and nynie

iqah n fiqah

ropes on thursday was a fun and thrilling one.my dynamic class was enjoying it the whole timee! and i'm haappyy that my classmates are all together!we mingle with everyonee in the classsss.. and ikinn im sorry that i didnt put our pic of me and you together.. tak lawa. hehehe

2009-04-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

"For yesterday's memories, today's love, and tomorrow's dreams that's when, I love you."

2009-04-19T23:30:00.004+08:00

i miss my babes.and aly darling wait in a few weeks time till we meet:)yay!

2009-04-19T18:01:00.007+08:00

finally my nursing studies homework is done! left biology science to go.. haizzz..i'm going to study biology and my peribahasa later.. arghhh.. i'm busy finishing my homework, finding reseach on the net and studying while babyy is soundly asleep.hehe. so cuteee la babyy.. so kecian la you. babyy i penat den besok dah kene book in.. anyway,i'm in love with my babyy ais. lalalala

2009-04-18T00:32:00.004+08:00

im missing my baby sooo muchh already. so much of us planning and get so haapyy and excited to meet later bt in the end it was cancelled cause babyy have to go for his duty early in the morning ard 6.30.im so angry! i hate last minute things. arrgghhh.god knows how much i miss him. babyy i need you badly. i want to be in your presence and have all the time of our own.i need a break after all my stressful hours studying..i want to cuddled up in your arms and feel you kissing me.awww.i need you la sayang.

2009-04-17T00:46:00.003+08:00

ive been really2 busy with school.its so stressful! can you imagine its only about two days that we start studying and we've covered 3 topics on bio-science and 3 topics on nursing studies and guess what? in 3 weeks time im already having a test!and there is sooo much too study!arghhhhh. whyyy must it be this stressful. not only nursing but i have to study for my o levels too. i hope i can cope with all this. haizzz. so many things in mind right now.
anyway my classmates are alright. make frens with all different people and i have some goodfriends already! yay! ikin,nurwani and natasha.. im relieved that my classmates have no attitude fucked up bitch. nyahahaha.

2009-04-12T10:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 19 MONTH ANNIVERSARY SAYANG!

"You bring such happiness to my life and fulfill that love I have looked and searched for."

2009-04-11T17:12:00.005+08:00

Love story with a sad ending.Ali macgraw and ryan o'neal.
"For someone who is in love,or was in love, or hopes to be in love."

2009-04-09T15:10:00.005+08:00

"The beauty of love is to look into your eyes, and see the love you feel for me, to see the way you feel and the way you care, that is why I love you."

2009-04-09T15:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRHTDAY FITRIYAH SULAIMAN AND JOLIN OH!!

all the best in your future and hope you have a wonderfull celebration today!

2009-04-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

finally its settled. im not angry and i won't hold any grudges on you. everything is fine now bt sister is pissed of at me for letting this go but its just me la.. hah.

2009-04-06T22:25:00.004+08:00

stop leaving in denial, dunt think you can ever break my friendship with my darling alba.
i've known her since primary school and i know exactly what kind of girl she is. i know she won't make up stories and she have no reason to do that too. why would i put my trust on you compared to her? and now don't start blaming her cause you should see for yourself first. you can have the guts to tell me you did tell a person about my problems when you are supposed to keep it to yourself. anyway i don't want to know all the sordid details that you told people about me. enough is enough.
too many people are betraying me and i don't trust anyone anymore. i should have listen to baby right from the start and thank him for making me a stronger person.thanks baby for understanding my every situation that is going on and making me feel betta each time i told you about my problems:)

Dearest darling alba. no matter hw much people try to spread rumors about us. You should know who i would trust.. eeee hw could you listen to that someone and think that i hate you? you didnt do anything wrong my dear.. babe why should i listen to other people when i know you since primary 5.i know what kind of person you are. dont worry things like this can neva break our friendship. i love you cupcake and i still owe you 10 fishcakes:)

2009-04-05T23:48:00.023+08:00

im feeling morose, bewildered and happy all at the same time. arghh.
im sick and tired of all the sickening things that is happening in my life right now.about the recent incident that evoked memories of the past and getting the other party to turn berserk.bt im glad that things are doing great now.On the other hand, im proud of myself that even things go haywire along the way i'm still standing on my two feets and could handle it patiently without a tear. yay! hahaha.
Anyway baby is being such a sweetheart and it makes me love him even more every second.lalalalala. andd at the same time he can be such a cute, mischevious little boy who gets upset when i talk to him brusquely e other day like a lil boy who gets angry at his mum for nt buying him toys. alahai my babyy soo cuteee la.. manjenye babyy i... hehe. i love to pamper him alot. and will always pamper and shower him with so muchh of lovee:)

my diary engrossed baby's attention:)